sing me lullaby...

Suatu malam di malam-malam chatting-an kami, kembali saya mendapat kiriman lagu dari Roland. Saat itu, karena masih pedekate dia betah begadang sampai pagi sambil mencari-cari cara menyampaikan perasaannya.
Dasar laki laki pemalu tak tahu flirting akhirnya pesannya dikirim melalui lagu. Jadilah kami saling balas kirim lagu.
Nah ini dia nih lagu yang paling bikin saya panik saat itu, liriknya sangat pas mewakili maksudnya. Saat itu, saking senangnya saya jadi gugup dan tidak mengirim lagu balasan.


I Really Want You

Many prophets preach on bended knee
Many clerics wasted wine
Do the bloodied sheets
On those cobbled streets
Mean I have wasted time

Are there silver shores on paradise?
Can I come in from the cold?
I killed a man in a far away land
My enemy I'm told

I really want you to really want me
But I really don't know if you can do that
I know you want to know I tried
But I know it's so hard for you to do that
And time's running out as often it does
And often dictates if you can't do that
Fate can't break this feeling inside
That's burning up through my veins

I really want you
I really want you
I really want you now

No matter what I say or do
The message isn't getting through
And you're listening to the sound
Of my breaking heart

I really want you
I really want you

Is a poor man rich in solitude?
Or will mother earth complain
Did the beggar pray for a sunny day but
Lady luck for rain

They say a million people bow and scrape
To an effigy of gold
As so life begin
And the ship we're in
And history unfold


I really want you to really want me
But I really don't know if you can do that (I really want you)
I know you want to know what's right
But I know it's so hard for you to do that (I really want you)
And time's running out as often it does
And often dictates that you can't do that
Fate can't break this feeling inside (now)
That's burning up through my veins

I really want you
I really want you
I really want you now

No matter what I say or do
The message isn't getting through
And you're listening to the sound
Of my breaking heart
No matter what I say or do
The message isn't getting through
And you're listening to the sound
Of my breaking heart

The guide to wife translations

The wife says: You want
The wife means: You want

The wife says: We need
The wife means: I want

The wife says: It's your decision
The wife means: The correct decision should be obvious

The wife says: Do what you want
The wife means: You'll pay for this later

The wife says: We need to talk
The wife means: I need to complain

The wife says: Sure... go ahead
The wife means: I don't want you to

The wife says: I'n not upset
The wife means: Of course I'm upset you moron

The wife says: You're ... so manly
The wife means: You need a shave and sweat a lot

The wife says: Be romantic, turn out the lights
The wife means: I have flabby thighs.

The wife says: This kitchen is so inconvenient
The wife means: I want a new house.

The wife says: I want new curtains.
The wife means: Also carpeting, furniture, and wallpaper!

The wife says: I need wedding shoes.
The wife means: The other forty pairs are the wrong shade of white.

The wife says: Hang the picture there
The wife means: No, I mean hang it there!

The wife says: I heard a noise
The wife means: I noticed you were almost asleep.

The wife says: Do you love me?
The wife means: I'm going to ask for something expensive.

The wife says: How much do you love me?
The wife means: I did something today you're not going to like.

The wife says: I'll be ready in a minute.
The wife means: Kick off your shoes and take an hour nap.

The wife says: Am I fat?
The wife means: Tell me I'm beautiful.

The wife says: You have to learn to communicate.
The wife means: Just agree with me.

The wife says: Are you listening to me?
The wife means: [Too late, your doomed.]

The wife says: Yes
The wife means: No

The wife says: No
The wife means: No

The wife says: Maybe
The wife means: No

The wife says: I'm sorry
The wife means: You'll be sorry

The wife says: Do you like this recipe?
The wife means: You better get used to it

The wife says: All we're going to buy is a soap dish
The wife means: I'm coming back with enough to fill this place.

The wife says: Was that the baby?
The wife means: Get out of bed and walk him

The wife says: I'm not yelling!
The wife means: Yes I am! I think this is important!

In answer to the question "What's wrong?"

The wife says: The same old thing.
The wife means: Nothing.

The wife says: Nothing.
The wife means: Everything.

The wife says: Nothing, really.
The wife means: It's just that you're an idiot.

The wife says: I don't want to talk about it.
The wife means: I'm still building up steam.

2.47 am

Malam ini aku berusaha tak memejamkan mata. tiga jam lagi aku harus bersiap shalat idhul adha. disampingku seorang lelaki berambut kuning sedang menahan kantuk sambil mendengar lagu Anggun. Ia terlihat beberapa kali menguap ketika kami menghabiskan malam dihadapan mata jendela. secangkir kopi harus kuhabiskan sebelum beranjak dari rumah kayu ini. namun detik ini aku bahkan tak membuat setegukpun. sekumpulan kata-kata menari di kepalaku, tak satupun akan kutulis. sebuah lagu Anggun terus menyanyi ditelingaku membuatku tak bisa menulis. saat ini, lelaki berambut kuning itu sedang berbaring di sampingku. mungkin ia telah tertidur, ah tidak sekarang dia mengangkat kepalanya dan mendekatkannya di lenganku. malam ini banyak seharusnya telah terjadi di hadapan mata jendela. kami hanya membiarkan semuanya berjalan begitu lambat karena bersamanya waktu terasa begitu cepat. aku tahu banyak ingin ia sampaikan dengan mata dan senyumannya. mungkin ia pun telah tahu aku sudah memahami pesan itu. ya, biarkan semua melambat. ia akan tahu nanti apa yang ingin mata dan senyumanku katakan.

Come a little bit closer
Hear what I have to say
Just like children sleepin
We could dream this night away.

But theres a full moon risin
Lets go dancin in the light
We know where the musics playin
Lets go out and feel the night.

Because Im still in love with you
I want to see you dance again
Because Im still in love with you
On this harvest moon.

When we were strangers
I watched you from afar
When we were lovers
I loved you with all my heart.

But now its gettin late
And the moon is climbin high
I want to celebrate
See it shinin in your eye.

Because Im still in love with you
I want to see you dance again
Because Im still in love with you
On this harvest moon.

Performed by Cassandra Wilson

00.42 am @ girl's room

Sub: mari berdamai

    Badanku gerah, keringat beranak sungai di dahi ku. Jika bukan karena bau kambing yang menyeberang dari kandang tetangga, telah kubuka jendela kamar ini sedari tadi. Walau tertutup, bau kambing masih mampu menyusup melalui jendela. Menumpang di udara yang berhembus melalui rongga-rongga jendela yang tak dapat tertutup rapat. Sia-sia kucoba menutup jendela itu, hanya melukai jari telunjukku yang keras menarik pengaitnya. Macet, ia tak mau bergerak maju seinci lagi.

    Usaha kerasku hanya membuat keringatku semakin deras. Apalagi dengan ritual malam membersihkan tempat tidur yang tak pernah absen setiap malam. Memastikan tak ada sebutir pasirpun yang akan menyambut kulitku ketika kakiku menjelajahi permukaan seprai. Satu lagi kebiasaan anehku sebelum tidur. Kakiku suka berenang di atas seprai. Satu butir pasirpun atau permukaan seprai yang berkerut akan sangat mengganggu kesenanganku. Aku takkan tenang sebelum mengusir mereka jauh-jauh. Setidaknya di luar jangkauan kulitku.

    Malam ini. Masih terlalu awal untuk tidur. Tapi aku telah berniat memperbaiki pola tidurku agar besok tak menjadi penghuni terakhir yang belum terjaga. Aku ingin terbagun ketika orang-orang di sekelilingku masih ada di tempat tidur. Aku ingin mereka terbangun dan beraktivitas tanpa membuatku merasa ditinggalkan. Entah mengapa, aku benci terbangun tanpa ada orang di sekitarku.

    Namun, bangun pagi bagiku bukan perkara mudah. Jam biologisku yang terlanjur siaga hanya setelah matahari mulai tinggi membuatku malas memulai hari dengan pagi. Mungkin pulas selama 8 jam malam ini bisa membantuku rela beranjak dari tempat tidur lebih awal.

    Ternyata untuk tidurpun aku harus berusaha keras. Rencana tidur 8 jam sepertinya tak akan terlaksana malam ini. Hawa kamar ini dan gerombolan nyamuk yang tanggap merespon suhu panas badanku terus mencegah datangnya kantuk. Mengusir naymukpun cukup membuatku gelisah dan semakin berkeringat. Kepalaku yang belum terbilas shampo selama 3 hari turut meramaikan suasana. Suatu rekor bagiku! Tanpa situasi seperti inipun, kepala yang 3 hari tak dikeramas sudah sangat merepotkan.

    Apa sebaiknya aku beranjak dari kamar ini sejenak? Mendinginkan tubuh dan menghisap satu dua batang rokok. Ah, tidak, sebaiknya jangan. Itu hanya akan membuatku semakin betah hingga Subuh tak terasa datang.

    Mungkin dengan melanjutkan bacaanku akan membuat mataku lelah dan tertidur (atau sebaliknya, tegang dan penasaran sebelum lembar terakhir habis). Hmm, kemungkinan pertama sepertinya lebih sesuai untukku. Tapi aku takkan tahu sebelum mencobanya. Hanya saja, aku masih harus berkelahi dengan nyamuk-nyamuk. Ah nyamuk! Malam  ini mari kita berdamai!!!

   

Bjork - Play Dead

Darling, stop confusing me,
With your wishful thinking.
Hopeful embraces,
Dont you understand?
I have to go through this,
I belong to here where no-one cares,
And no-one loves.
No light no air to live in,
A place called hate,
The city of fear.

I play dead,
It stops the hurting.
I play dead,
And the hurting stops.

Its sometimes just like sleeping,
Curling up inside my private tortures.
I nestle into pain,
Hug suffering,
Caress every ache

"I Just Love You"

Lonely, yeah that's the word
I leave my heart when I leave her
the days go on forever and the nights do too

One evening out on the road
a half a world away from home
I thought she was sleeping
when the call came through

I said, Darling, it's late, is everything ok
Silence took over the room
til she said

I...
I just love you
I don't know why, I just do
When are you coming home
I'm coming home soon
and I just love you too

Lonely lets me be
For a while she sets me free
I close my eyes and I dream of her

She's lost in my arms
her head on my heart
and softly she whispers the words

I...
I just Love You
I Don't Know Why, I Just Do
When are you coming home
I'm coming home soon
and I just love you too

I'll never stop being amazed
How my 4-year old girl knows exactly what to say

I...
I just Love You
I don't know why, I just do
When are you coming home
I'm coming home soon
Cause I just love you too

"I am only one,
But still I am one.
I cannot do everything,
But still I can do something;
And because I cannot do everything
I will not refuse to do the something that I can do."

-Edward Everett

Pulang

Tuhanku
ku ingin bercerita
ku tunduk bersujud
ku mulai berdoa

Lelahnya jiwaku
beratnya langkahku

Tuhanku
ku rindu tawaku yang dulu
kejujuran kebenaran yang dulu ku tahu
ke mana semua
sejauh itukah
ku sesal sudah

Peluklah semua tanyaku
jawablah dengan cara mu

Tuhanku
ku ingin berkelana
kembali mencari jalan ke rumah
bukan di sini tempat ku
bukan mereka yang ku cinta

Hari ini
ku mengenali
arti keberanian
yang menerbangkanku
di atas semua derita
dan apa kabarnya

Usai semua sandiwara
cukup ku berpura pura

Sejujurnya
hanya dia yang ku cinta
ke hatinya aku ingin pulang

written by: Dewi Lestari

kecupan yang kau tanam di keningku
kini telah tumbuh jadi pohon lebat

akar, batang dan cabang-cabangnya kuat
tempat anak-anak senang memanjat

sesekali
tidakkah kau ingin datang
mengecap kecut buahnya?

[sebuah sajak  m. aan mansyur]

sajak sajak Sapardi Djoko Damono yang di terjemahkan dalam musik oleh dua musisi Ari dan Reda

the music interpretation of Sapardi Djoko Damono's poems by the two musicians - Ari and Reda

A Warning Sign

A warning sign
I missed the good part then I realised
I started looking and the bubble burst
I started looking for excuses
Come on in, Ive gotta tell you what a state Im in
Ive gotta tell you in my loudest tones
That I started looking for a warning sign
When the truth is
I miss you
Yeah the truth is
That I miss you so

A warning sign
You came back to haunt me and I realised
That you were an island and I passed you by
And you were an island to discover
Come on in,Ive gotta tell you what a state Im in
Ive gotta tell you in my loudest tones
That I started looking for a warning sign

And the truth is
I miss you
Yeah the truth is
I miss you so
And Im tired
I should not have let you go

So I crawl back into your open arms
Yes I crawl back into your open arms
And I crawl back into your open arms
Yes I crawl back into your open arms

written by: Cold Play

songs that make up my day